Stop everything please , i seriously need a break .

You've made me do this , so don't put the blame on me . You're tired , so i am . You can vent your anger so why can't i . You're a human and hey , i am one too . Everything has a limit , and i shall say that this is my limit . You've made me the most happy girl on earth and you've made me like a fool . Everytime , you will juz push me away when you have problem , why , don't trust me ? You would rather tell other people than me . You would rather talk on the phone with other people than me . You would rather call other people than me . You would rather go out with other people than me . That's not the way we used to be . Many things have happened during these 8 or 9 months . We're drifting apart , yes i know . It's pretty obvious isn't it ? Even any people could see it , that we have drift away . People kept asking me why am i not with you , what should i say ? She don't want me as her bff or what ? I really don't know . I've been wanting to tell you this since like dunno how many months ago , is that i really need you . Those times with you were the happiest moments . But not nao anymore . What do you want me to do ? Like seriously . Tell me , at least i know . May i know what am i to you nao . I really need/want to know your answer . Everytime i try to look for you , but you're juz with another person . Whether in band or what . I didn't say anything . Rather than making you unhappy , i kept every single thing to myself , juz to see you smile . It's been very hard on me . I don't blame you , it's juz that sometimes i really cannot take it , you understand ? I have feelings too . Seeing you cry when i don't even know the reason why , really breaks my heart . But may i know that is it becuz of me , that make you cry . The message you sent me this afternoon is juz so sweet , that made me keep showing that message to shufang . [ even if we are gonna die , i will still miss you ] . That's what you said , isn't that sweet ? But everything juz changed in like 1 hour time which i dunno why . You juz simply turn away when you see me , what's that ? Would you like if i did that to you ? I bet you don't . Nobody likes that okay . Stop it please , i'm sorry .

I need gummy bears nao ~